Do Not Go Quietly excerpt - "To Write" by Annie Neugebauer

By Lesley Conner
on May 24, 2019
2 comments
To Write
by Annie Neugebauer

 

Tonight I dreamed

my mouth was zippered shut,

like some macabre doctor

had taken the school teacher’s gesture

quite literally    

and replaced each lip with one half a zipper.

 

Like any fresh surgery,

the flesh ached and burned,

far too tender for me to even think

of touching it with the gentlest fingertips,

much less grasping the metal pull

and opening the angry little teeth.

 

I wandered down a street I knew well

surrounded by strangers who my dream told me

I knew well as well

and every one of them

sealed at the mouth:

      a zipper,

      a line like melted wax,

      sutures stitched across like a rag doll,

      a single, large button pulled up over the top lip,

      staples,

      the particularly vicious stretch of super glue,

      and, most terrifying of all, a perfect, smooth melding of bottom to top lip

              no line or seal remaining where mouth used to be,

              only a vague bump out of the teeth beneath the flesh,

              caged.

 

I was desperate to tell them something.

Wild with the need.

I don’t know what it was.

I don’t know if I even knew, then, in the dream.

I know only that I raced from person to person

forcing myself into their paths

and trying

again and again—oh, sleeping eternity—

to speak.

 

Silence.

 

The words piled up against the inside of my zipper,

stacked up on my tongue,

brushed the roof of my mouth

and gullet

and down my clenched throat,

choking,

tears stinging my fresh wounds,

and still,

still …

 

Never has there been a dream

with such a perfect lack of sound.

 

When I awoke,

reader,

I did not speak.

 

I picked up the notebook

I keep by my bed

and I began to write,

the scratching of my pen

against this page

pulling and clicking

like the long, metallic freeing

of a zipper.

 

Do Not Go Quietly edited by Jason Sizemore and Lesley Conner is available now!

Double the reading fun!

By Lesley Conner
on May 21, 2019

As far as I know, today is a first for Apex Publications! Instead of releasing one new book for you to read and enjoy, today we have two! That's right! Today is the official release day for both Do Not Go Quietly edited by Jason Sizemore and Lesley Conner AND Pimp My Airship by Maurice Broaddus.

Do Not Go Quietly is an anthology of victory in defiance. It includes stories by Brooke Bolander, Sarah Pinsker, John Hornor Jacobs, Fran Wilde, Rich Larson, and so many more. These stories are filled with anger, resistance, and hope!

Do Not Go Quietly is an anthology of science fiction and fantasy short stories about those who resist. Within this anthology, we will chronicle the fight for what is just and right, and what that means: from leading revolutions to the simple act of saying “No.”

Resistance can be a small act of everyday defiance. And other times, resistance means massive movements that topple governments and become iconic historical moments. Either way, there is power in these acts, and the contributors in Do Not Go Quietly will harness that power to shake our readers to the core. We are subordinates to a power base that is actively working to solidify its grip on the world. Now is the time to stand up and raise your voice and tell the world that enough is enough!

Get a taste of the stories within this collection by reading "Face" by Veronica Brush in the April issue of Apex Magazine.

Andrew Reising from Wild Speculation said that Do Not Go Quietly is " an excellent anthology." You can read his full review here

Join the resistance! Pick up your copy of Do Not Go Quietly today!

Pimp My Airship by Maurice Broaddus takes the theme of resistance and revolution, and views it through a lens of steamfunk and alternate history.

Warning: Don't believe the hype!

All the poet called Sleepy wants to do is spit his verses, smoke chiba, and stay off the COP’s radar—all of which becomes impossible once he encounters a professional protestor known as (120 Degrees of) Knowledge Allah. They soon find themselves on the wrong side of local authorities and have to elude the powers that be.

When young heiress Sophine Jefferson’s father is murdered, the careful life she’d been constructing for herself tumbles around her. She’s quickly drawn into a web of intrigue, politics and airships, joining with Sleepy and Knowledge Allah in a fight for their freedom. Chased from one end of a retro-fitted Indianapolis to the other, they encounter outlaws, the occasional circus, possibly a medium, and more outlaws. They find themselves in a battle much larger than they imagined: a battle for control of the country and the soul of their people.

The revolution will not be televised!

Read the first chapter of Pimp My Airship here.

Paul's Picks called Pimp My Airship "a very good character-driven steampunk novel filled with gangsters, greed, and all means of gluttony. " You can read the full review here.

Pick up your copy of Pimp My Airship today!

Do Not Go Quietly Kickstarter and Open Submissions

By Lesley Conner
on August 23, 2018

We are currently running a Kickstarter for Do Not Go Quietly, an anthology of victory in defiance edited by Jason Sizemore and Lesley Conner.

Resistance. Revolution. Standing up and demanding to have your space, your say, your right to be. From small acts of defiance to protests that shut down cities, Do Not Go Quietly is an anthology of science fiction and fantasy short stories about those who resist. Within this anthology, we will chronicle the fight for what is just and right, and what that means: from leading revolutions to the simple act of saying “No.”

As of this morning, the anthology is 60% funded with 17 days to go.

Head over to Kickstarter now to help us reach 100% funding and bring Do Not Go Quietly to life!

We have fantastic lineup of authors contributing stories that includes such writers as A. Merc Rustad, Rebecca Roanhorse, Maurice Broaddus, Nayad Monroe, Karin Lowachee, Brooke Bolander, John Hornor Jacobs, Laird Barron, Brian Keene, Cassandra Khaw, Sheree Renée Thomas, Catherynne M. Valente, Seanan McGuire, Fran Wilde, Rich Larson, Sarah Pinsker, Tal M. Klein, and J.F. Gonzalez (co-writing with Lesley Conner). But we're looking for more!

Submissions for Do Not Go Quietly officially opened once we passed 50% funding. You can find the online form to submit here.

Submission Guidelines:

1) Submit your work in Shunn Standard Manuscript Format.
2) Maximum word length is a firm 7,500 words. Anything more will be auto-rejected.
3) Payment for original fiction is $.06 per word up to 7,500 words. Minimum of $60.

We are looking for original work that has not be previously published. Stories should be about resistance and revolution set within the science fiction and fantasy genres. Resistance can be a small act of everyday defiance. And other times, resistance means massive movements that topple governments and become iconic historical moments. Either way, there is power in these acts. What your characters are resisting is up to you, the writer. The things we fight against, the inequality, abuse, and unjust treatment are personal, and each define an individual's life experience. Use your experiences, look at the world around you, and tell your story.

Apex Book Company welcomes and encourages submissions from writers of all race, color, religion (creed), gender, gender expression, age, national origin (ancestry), disability, marital status, sexual orientation, and military status. We want diverse voices. We value diverse voices. Having said that, please be aware that we do not collect any information that might clue our editors to any of these attributes other than your name, email, and address prior to any decisions made regarding your submission.

Assuming that Do Not Go Quietly successfully funds, submissions will remain open through September 19th.

Back Do Not Go Quietly on Kickstarter today.

Anthology Announcement: Do Not Go Quietly!

By Lesley Conner
on October 25, 2017
2 comments

Anthology Announcement: Do Not Go Quietly!

For a while now, Jason and I have been hinting at a secret project we’ve been working on behind the scenes of Apex. Today, I can finally announce what it is.

Do Not Go Quietly

This spring, Apex Publications will be running a Kickstarter to fund an anthology about resistance titled Do Not Go Quietly, to be edited by Jason Sizemore and Lesley Conner. Authors John Hornor Jacobs, A. Merc Rustad, Rebecca Roanhorse, Maurice Broaddus, Nayad Monroe, Karin Lowachee, Brooke Bolander, Laird Barron, Brian Keene, Cassandra Khaw, Nisi Shawl, Catherynne M. Valente, Seanan McGuire, Fran Wilde, Rich Larson, and Sarah Pinsker have answered the call and will be contributing stories. Plus, a new story by J.F. Gonzalez, co-written with Lesley Conner, will be included.

Want your name among this outstanding lineup? We will be holding an open submissions period during the Kickstarter!

Cover art will be by the amazing Marcela Bolivar. Marcela is the cover artist of Apex Magazine issues 96 and 87, as well as Damien Angelica Walters’s upcoming collection Cry Your Way Home. We don’t have completed artwork yet, but we can offer you this sneak peek of her work in progress:

Resistance. Revolution. Standing up and demanding to have your space, your say, your right to be. From small acts of defiance to protests that shut down cities, Jason Sizemore and Lesley Conner are looking for dark SF, fantasy, and horror stories about those who resist. Do Not Go Quietly!

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